Finding my own voice has been a challenge, and sometimes I feel like it’s fallen on deaf ears. Who I am and how I am is something I’m constantly working on. I’m proud of myself for sticking to my guns and being independent. I now know I can hold my own; I take care of myself, I’m responsible for every facet of my life from bills to healthcare to flossing daily, and I still haven’t reached my full potential. That makes me very happy, I make me really happy.
But there are also quite a few other things that make me happy:
I love the refreshing feeling of running into someone you haven’t seen in a while. Even though you don’t keep in touch, you’re able to identify with them, share thoughts and opinions, and see progress in them and in yourself. I have had many of these random occurrences in the past week and just need to say that I appreciate these moments; they keep me grounded.
I adore my best friend. I feel at this point our lives are transparent to each other. She has no problem telling me that I am being ridiculous and I have no problem telling her she needs to walk away from the past. We disagree, we roll our eyes at each other, and we let each other learn our own mistakes. But every Sunday we reevaluate where we are at and where we want to go. If you don’t have a friend like that, I recommend you get one.
I thoroughly enjoy spending time with my mother and both my grandmothers. In my younger years they seemed worlds away from anything I could relate to, but now I see they are just from a different era. As much as I love technology, social media, and the advantages I grew up with, I’m jealous of the simplicity and personal connections they had. Their combine perception has helped me see true value in friendship, relationships, and setting goals. I never really appreciated my education much until the moment I saw my mom crying at her own graduation after receiving her diploma. In that moment I realized she had set aside her goal of further education to raise a family, then went to school part-time for 8 years, and finally accomplished one of her life long dreams, something I completely took for granted. (Love you mom! I know you read these!)
More than you’d expect, living alone has made me so happy. Having all my things organized how I like them really makes coming home relaxing. I’m not saying it’s always clean but having the space to organize it all has been a much-needed breath of fresh air after having roommates for so long. All the food in the fridge is mine, my drain is never get clogged because of someone else’s hair, and the only person’s toothpaste I have to wipe out of the sink is mine. It’s been eye-opening to realize how it was just a combination of several really little things that had been stressing me out in the past.
Fitness and nutrition have really become my niche. I look forward to my daily workouts and have enjoyed every second I’ve spent educating myself on nutrition. At this point in my life I am the healthiest and happiest I’ve ever been. It’s really been a lifestyle change. Getting certified in nutrition and as a personal trainer has allowed me to finally work in the industry I have pursued for so long. I love my work and the people I work with, seeing the light in their eyes when they learn new things, see and feel progress, and accomplish their goals confirms my purpose in this industry.
I never thought that I would feel myself growing up but I do, I feel it
everyday and it’s a good feeling. I love progress; I need to feel it in order to be content in life. Some areas improve sooner than others and some areas you have to wait for. Either way, I’ll take it!